Tuesday, July 2, 2013

365 Days of Memories Take Four - Day 182

Tropical Storm Passing through.
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*I wish I could lay down beside you when the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun.
But like everything I've ever known,
It'd disappear someday...
So I spend my whole life hiding my heart away.*
I joke around a lot with my friends and family about how I'll probably never get married because I don't have time to even think about meeting someone, or how I'll never have kids because the little ones at work drive me crazy... but the truth is that's really just a defense mechanism.  When I look at pictures like this of a couple walking along the beach at a storm rolls by in the distance I see everything that I want and hope to have someday... and I wonder if I'll ever get the chance. 
I've always said I think it's harder to find love the older you get.  I remember being 20 and thinking it would be so easy... and having boyfriends and always thinking that would be 'the one' I would marry someday.  But none of them were ever the one and I'm not the kind of girl to settle so when I realized this, I let them go... and sometimes they let me go.  And now, the older I get the more I realize it IS harder to find love in your late 20's and early 30's.  Probably because at my age you aren't looking to just fool around. 
But the truth is,
I just want to meet that guy who loves to take walks on the beach and understands the beauty of a sunset or a sunrise or just a blue sky on a clear day.
I want to meet that guy who will pull the car over so I can take a picture of an awesome storm coming in.
I wanna find someone who likes staying up late on Fridays but knows that you don't have to go out drinking to enjoy it.  That sometimes just being at home curled up by the fire with a good book is enough.
I want to meet the man who stays in bed late on Saturday mornings because that's what Saturday mornings are for.
But most of all I want to meet the guy who loves me... and who I love back.
I don't know... sometimes I guess it just seems like it'll never happen.

1 comment:

Optimistic Existentialist said...

Of course it will happen...you're a wonderful and amazing person my friend.